What do people think?

I was thinking this morning, do you ever wonder what people think of you?

I'm not talking about when you worry about if you should change to be more like what people want (I'm 99% past that in my life). But I sometimes wonder if how people see me is how I think I am portraying myself. When I'm busy and running to and from things maybe my neighbors think I'm a maniac, but what I really hate is being late. When I'm tired, I act like a sass to my husband where I really just can't communicate well when tired. When I'm all business and being organized I may come across as a jerk, but I just hate wasting time, so I am being efficient. See what I mean? People will react to you and you know they didn't get what you were trying to

Speaking of changing, I've grown so much as a person since I was a teenager. Occasionally I will connect with friends that I used to hang out with often in my youth. When we talk, they often say that I have a sense of peace about me, and self confidence that I think usually comes with age. In my own brain I am COMPLETELY different than I used to be. But something interesting happened. I saw a Young Women leader that I had in my rougher years of youth. She of course knew me when she was an adult and therefore has a different perspective of teenage Rachel. She told me that I am EXACTLY the same as when I was a teenager. It goes to show that the essence of Rachel is still the same (sense of humor, mannerisms) but my heart has changed.

Sometimes I miss the old, carefree me that I used to be. But I wouldn't change the me now for anything. Talk to me in 10 years. I'm excited to see what I become!