I figured it out!

Everyone keeps asking me how the adjustment is going with having 4 kids. I keep telling people that it's going ok. They seem to assume that what that really means is I am not coping well. Does it show on my face? Deep dark circles? :) Is my aura giving off stress?

Well, I figured it out! (By the way, this makes me a genius)

It's not necessarily that 4 is a lot more physical work than 3. They are all still healthy, loved, bathed, and taken care of. But MY EXPECTATION on how well those things are done has made me have to down grade. I can't clean the house a well as before. It's still clean, but not to my standard. The kids are still clothed, but the clothes don't match all the time, because I haven't gotten all the laundry done. Dinner isn't done when I want it to...it's chaotic where before I really strived to be more organized. Does that make sense? I stress more because I have to be on time. I just have to. So I'm not a very pleasant person while we are getting ready to go somewhere because I haven't adjusted to how much time things take.

I've always heard that when you have 4 or more kids it's just easy and adding one more is not a very big deal. I say this is true AND not true.

Ben asked me last night while we were watching a movie how many more we were going to have. I told him no more. He smiled at me and said...that's not true. He was fishing for a commitment from me. I told him he better not press his luck for a commitment because I would MOST DEFINITELY commit to NO MORE, which is not what he wanted to hear probably. Sounds to me like he needs to feed the baby in the middle of the night for a week and then we'll talk :)