Sometimes you just feel like everything is bigger than it really is. I go through these periods in my life where I feel like everything is an emotional battle. In reality it's not big, or monumental. I go to bed at night not feeling like I got anything done and dread waking up because I have felt even more overwhelmed (which is unusual because I usually feel better in the mornings and less emotional). It's a bad cycle.
Another problem, I have a really hard time saying I'm wrong. To make it worse it's hard for me to say I'm sorry (because that means that I am admitting that I was wrong :) so it's considerably hard living with me when I struggle like this. I'm also a square one type of girl {Definition: When one feels whenever they make one mistake, all ground is lost and therefore back to square one} which makes it really hard in my perfectionista brain to get ahead.
Anyone else with me?
I'll end right there. Putting myself out there. Reading my post back it sounds like I am really struggling, but I'm not! Life is still going on and I am blessed. Overall life is really good. I just need a RESET.
Sailing by Ash Breeze
6 years ago
I'm with you. Its really hard for me to get done what I can, because I'm never quite happy with not accomplishingc it all! Is the not wanting to admit we're wrong a genetic trait? I swear, Tim says i'm so stubborn, But it can be good too I guess. At least we fight for what I believe in! You're great though, don't be too hard on yourself! lOVE YA!
ReplyDeleteI think that Jake wonders sometimes if he has married the bride of frankenstein~!! I'm serious. One minute I'm totally sweet and the next I am losing my patience over the silliest things. And I always get this blank look from him, like... " hmmm, I know you're in there somewhere. I'll just give you a minute to come back..". :) But the best thing about this is being able to see things and change them. We are all of us, always, changing. Refining. I have prayed a lot lately for my edges to be refined. It is a constant battle, but I feel a little better everyday! Love ya!
ReplyDeleteOh Rachel. I know how you feel. TO be overwhelmed while you have a good life going on for you!
ReplyDeleteHang in there! When our little ones are all grown we will get a bit more rest.
Totally understand this post. 100%. I need a reset button the size of the Staples Easy button.
ReplyDeleteYou didn't mention the panic that shows up too, but I get that. It seems like when I get one day where I accomplish monumental amounts of stuff, I get a next day like the ones you describe. I'm starting to expect them. We're all doing our best, and it's all anyone can ask.
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